I realize it's insensitive/out-of-touch to complain about the mediocre problems in my privileged life, while so many people have things so much worse, and existential crises run rampant throughout the world. Things were already terrifying with the pandemic, and the past week's events show that we still have an overwhelming amount of work to do on fundamental issues.
I rarely post on social media anymore (aside from occasional photos of my cat). Many of my friends have similarly backed off in the past few years - either switched to read-only mode, or stopped logging in at all. Now that most of the random, fun things that used to fill the feeds have been pushed down beneath political discourse and raising awareness (which i do believe are important), it feels out of touch to post about things like how my PT is going. There's this pressure to either participate in discussions of current events, or offer up some other broadly relevant content (cat photos, in my opinion, qualify for the latter).
For politics and news of the day, i generally have nothing to say that hasn't already been said. My circles are mostly an echo chamber anyway, full of voices more eloquent and with broader perspective than my own. (The few who fundamentally disagree with me won't be swayed by my arguments (i tried for years before finally giving up).) All i can really do on those fronts is donate money and vote.
But i still find myself in need of an outlet for introspection and support for my rebuilding/recovery efforts. (Even if for no other reason than to process the constant churn of thoughts & try to clear my head so i can sleep at night.) But even here, i'll have to figure out how to strike a balance. (I spent 2 weeks editing my initial post, and happened to hit the "publish" button right as recent events boiled over.)
Anyway, if anyone is reading this, i hope you and your families are safe and doing ok.
